Jealousy

Okay, so I admit it, I have jealousy issues. Not the best problem to have, but hey at least I admit it. You see, I have such a strong desire to be anybody other than me, and because of that I grow jealous of people who are more outgoing, more artistic, etc. For instance, sometimes I’m jealous of my sister, because she is such an amazing singer. And she’s doing things I never could…singing solos in front of hundreds of people. Or I look at the facebook photo albums of some of my friends, and see pictures of them going to social events, being involved, and actually having an amazing college experiences. I don’t have those. I’m a junior now and I haven’t done anything amazing. I haven’t gotten involved. I’ve barely even gone to social functions. I’m still a loner, who has very few friends, and even with the few friends I have I spend a pathetic amount of time alone. I’m the girl who skips meals because I’m too scared to go to the dex alone. I’m the person who sits alone at chapel and timeout because I have no one to be with. I’m the girl whose story is barely worth listening to it’s so boring. I am insignificant. We will graduate, we will move on with our lives. I won’t become anything amazing, and I’m sure no one from school will even remember me in a matter of years. I’ll just be yet another nobody who’s walked these halls.