Heading out

Tomorrow I board a plane and head to portland. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't incredibly nervous. I've never done anything like this before. I wish i could be like some of my friends, seemingly fearless and willing to face the world. Why am I so afraid to face anything in this life? every little things scares me, and it is when this feeling overwhelms me that I begin to think there is no point in living, because I'll never be able to handle life. I hope this summer proves me wrong. I hope I have an amazing time and end up wanting to come back again. I'm just too scared right now to even see the possibility of that coming true.