Who Am I?

Who am I
Brave
or Frightened
strong
or weak
Good
or evil
Am I worthy of
your love?
Do I deserve
to be happy?
Or am I
meant to spend eternity
in this dreary place of darkness
where hope runs away
and life seems pointless
fears overwhelm
and hearts seem empty
hallow eyes
and shallow words
half felt "I Love You's"
Friends who say
"Always"
but actually
mean "never"
parents who
feign support
but pull it away
when i need it most
schools that say
"Christlike"
but shove away
the needy
shut up the hurting
abandon the desperate
Where am I to go?
to find peace
to find love
up
down
I look to one side
then the other
but everything
is dark
all I see
is fog
no comfort
no peace
no place for me
anywhere