What was she supposed to do now?

What was she supposed to do now?
Now that all hope was gone
and nothing but the bitter taste of sorrow
clung to her lips
she had held on to hope for so long
believed that one day God would save her
but now she wasn't so sure
she had knelt by her bed each night
prayed for God's gentle hand
to sweep over her life
brush away her imperfections
mold her into something worthy of life
she was tired of the pain
that relentlessly pierced
through her body each day
tired of the exhaustion
that drowned her every hour
she wanted to believe
that God would heal her one day
but she had given up hope
if she was loved
then why did she suffer
why did her pain only get worse?
it stole her dreams
took away her ability
to glide through life
forced her to grow up
long before her time
maybe if God
had whispered to her soul
showed her
that there was purpose
to the immense burden she carried
then maybe, just maybe
hope wouldn't have died